Happy New Years! It is January 1st 2009, what a scary thought. I can't believe another year has passed by. 2008 was an eventful year for me with lots of highs and lows. Ty and I bought our first house as a couple and we love it. Some people love to spend lots of money on an awesome car, for me I love my home. I would rather drive a bomb but live in a beautiful house. Ty and I have spent time together making this place our home, and it reflects our personality and love for each other. We like nothing better than curling up on the couch and watching a great movie. Or making dinner in our kitchen after a long day at work and sharing a meal. I also got my first pet since Jessie who I still miss every day. George our long haired jack russell is quirky, loving, hyperactive and a loyal brother to Keith. The two of them absolutely love each other, and they keep Ty and I entertained with their antics.
Ty continued to do his amazing charity work in his sandtrooper outfit. He did events for Kids Flicks and the Starlight foundation. He also created an amazing sandtrooper model from scratch which I'm so proud of.
I was working for a company that made me miserable with it's constant bullying and double standards. Workwise 2008 has been an extremely stressful year, but I am looking forward to 2009. I am about to become self employed and try my hand at making money through the online retail business. To be honest I am petrified because it could fail miserably. I have a good feeling about it, because I am so passionate about what I am selling but things have a way of not working out as I planned. So as many situations in life require - I am prepared for the worst but hope for the best.
I have missed Phan, Clara and especially my niece Beth terribly this year. They have been in Brisbane for a year now and they have three more years to go. It has been quite difficult because Beth has a way of picking me up when I'm feeling hopeless. I have adjusted to the situation and it just makes the time I spend with her even more valuable.
I have many things I would like to achieve in 2009. I would like to spend more time with my family and friends. I would like to worry less and just let life take its natural course. I would like to look after my health, and excercise more.
Life is never predictable and it isn't easy. I've learnt that through the many challenges God has thrown my away. But I've been rewarded with so much as well. A loving family, loyal friends and a partner who I can see myself spending the rest of my life with. I don't generally believe in new years resolutions, but if I had to make one it would be to be more grateful for what I have.
Thursday, 1 January 2009
Friday, 26 December 2008
Friday, 19 December 2008
Thursday, 18 December 2008
I'm a housewife
Well alot has happened in the last few weeks. I've had stress leave from my job at MIGA due to the false accusations made against me, and I am now at home working on starting my online business. We were meant to launch before christmas but things have been a bit crazy as you can imagine. I think everyone is in the same boat this time of year.
Last week I was lucky enough to go to Brisbane to spend time with my brother, sis in law and my gorgeous niece Beth. I had the best time it was awesome! Beth is so funny now and she is such a Monkey See Monkey Do, you have to be so careful what you say around her now because she is like a sponge. It was great to spend some time with Phan and Clara too. Brissie weather is so hot but relaxing at the same time, all I wanted to do was sleep which I did alot of much to their amusement. We are going again in January and I'll have to bring some bathers with me so I can see Beth swim. It was great for me to be out of Adelaide it really helped me relax alot and I've come back to Adelaide refreshed.
This week has been so busy with doctors appointments because they are trying to determine why I bruise so much. I got my test results back and my iron levels have dropped again. But they took more blood to test for clotting and to double check the iron because the doctor thinks that may be to do with my stress levels at the time of taking blood. I have an awesome new GP who is only a registrar at the moment but she is better than any GP I've ever had she is fantastic and very thorough. So I've had two blood tests within a week, but hopefull they will figure out what is up with my bruising.
My website still has alot of background work to be done but I'm hoping it will be completed by the end of January ready for business. Watch this space www.orientalblossom.com.au . It will be selling handbags and jewellery but we will look at expanding to funky homewares that are hard to find in the shops.
I'm exciteed about christmas this year not long to go!! But it will be hard not having Beth, Phan and Clara around so I'm counting down to the 10th of January, bring it on!!!
Last week I was lucky enough to go to Brisbane to spend time with my brother, sis in law and my gorgeous niece Beth. I had the best time it was awesome! Beth is so funny now and she is such a Monkey See Monkey Do, you have to be so careful what you say around her now because she is like a sponge. It was great to spend some time with Phan and Clara too. Brissie weather is so hot but relaxing at the same time, all I wanted to do was sleep which I did alot of much to their amusement. We are going again in January and I'll have to bring some bathers with me so I can see Beth swim. It was great for me to be out of Adelaide it really helped me relax alot and I've come back to Adelaide refreshed.
This week has been so busy with doctors appointments because they are trying to determine why I bruise so much. I got my test results back and my iron levels have dropped again. But they took more blood to test for clotting and to double check the iron because the doctor thinks that may be to do with my stress levels at the time of taking blood. I have an awesome new GP who is only a registrar at the moment but she is better than any GP I've ever had she is fantastic and very thorough. So I've had two blood tests within a week, but hopefull they will figure out what is up with my bruising.
My website still has alot of background work to be done but I'm hoping it will be completed by the end of January ready for business. Watch this space www.orientalblossom.com.au . It will be selling handbags and jewellery but we will look at expanding to funky homewares that are hard to find in the shops.
I'm exciteed about christmas this year not long to go!! But it will be hard not having Beth, Phan and Clara around so I'm counting down to the 10th of January, bring it on!!!
Friday, 28 November 2008
When Insomnia Hits...
You find yourself blogging at 1am! It has been a very long time since I have written on here, and since I find myself wide awake at 1am on a Friday morning I thought I would do an update.
Alot has been happening around here. Work is starting to get quite busy and there have been dramas left and right, let's just say that some of the people I work with are becoming quite unbearable. Besides that the workload makes the day go faster so that's always a bonus.
Christmas is not far away and I will start my christmas shopping with my mum this weekend. I'm hoping to get to Jetty Rd on Sunday as well because there are some great boutiques there, and I have some ideas for gifts. I'm hoping to get most of it out of the way fairly soon so I can avoid the crowds, shopping malls during Christmas to me are awful I hate it! Everyone is so grumpy and the staff are tired and overworked, makes you forget the true meaning of christmas. We haven't put up our christmas tree yet, so maybe Ty and I will do that Sunday night together, the first christmas in our new house, it will be awesome!
Last Monday I had a medical drama and felt pain like I've never felt before. I came home from work and had dinner as per normal, but around 6:30pm I started getting really bad stomach aches, they started getting progressively worse to the point where Ty had to take me to hospital. Just as Ty pulled up to the RAH I threw up all over myself (the fourth vomit of the night) so I walk into emergency doubled over in pain and vomit all over my clothes. The triage nurse was extremely rude and unsympathetic and I honestly think she is in the wrong profession. She told us we would have to wait so I went outside to get some fresh air, while out there the pain was so bad I collapsed, a paramedic saw me and got me a wheelchair but she wasn't very nice either. I asked her for some water because I was feeling so weak and she says to me "water isn't going to help you" WTF?? The triage nurse also decided to tell me I was silly for going outside I felt like slapping her. Looking back on it I think they must have thought I had overdosed on drugs and was just another druggie. Thank God for Phan, because he managed to find a colleague working that night and she got me in sooner, and I was able to have a morphine injection to ease the pain while I waited for the doctor on duty.
Being so sick made me realise how vulnerable the human body is and that we should really take care of it. The thing that made me saddest though was the lack of human compassion that night. While I was doubled over in pain in the hospital car park on the cement, several groups of people walked past me and not one person stopped to ask if I was okay. I was by myself (because Ty was waiting inside so we wouldn't miss our spot) and screaming in pain. I could understand that some people might have been scared and didn't want to stop. But a couple of men walked past and just looked at me and kept walking, I hardly think I would have been a threat to their safety. I can honestly say that if I saw someone in that much pain I would have at least got a nurse or doctor to come out and check on that person. It made me sad that as human beings we could treat each other so heartlessly. On that note I hope this christmas I stop to think about others more and if given the opportunity to help someone out I don't keep walking. I think we could all do more. I hope this christmas in the midst of all the chaos I remember to stop and reflect on how lucky I am and think of those less fortunate.
In the spirit of Christmas hold your loved ones a little closer, and realise that a gift doesn't have to come with wrapping paper and ribbon, sometimes all we need is someone to reach out and make us feel valued.
Alot has been happening around here. Work is starting to get quite busy and there have been dramas left and right, let's just say that some of the people I work with are becoming quite unbearable. Besides that the workload makes the day go faster so that's always a bonus.
Christmas is not far away and I will start my christmas shopping with my mum this weekend. I'm hoping to get to Jetty Rd on Sunday as well because there are some great boutiques there, and I have some ideas for gifts. I'm hoping to get most of it out of the way fairly soon so I can avoid the crowds, shopping malls during Christmas to me are awful I hate it! Everyone is so grumpy and the staff are tired and overworked, makes you forget the true meaning of christmas. We haven't put up our christmas tree yet, so maybe Ty and I will do that Sunday night together, the first christmas in our new house, it will be awesome!
Last Monday I had a medical drama and felt pain like I've never felt before. I came home from work and had dinner as per normal, but around 6:30pm I started getting really bad stomach aches, they started getting progressively worse to the point where Ty had to take me to hospital. Just as Ty pulled up to the RAH I threw up all over myself (the fourth vomit of the night) so I walk into emergency doubled over in pain and vomit all over my clothes. The triage nurse was extremely rude and unsympathetic and I honestly think she is in the wrong profession. She told us we would have to wait so I went outside to get some fresh air, while out there the pain was so bad I collapsed, a paramedic saw me and got me a wheelchair but she wasn't very nice either. I asked her for some water because I was feeling so weak and she says to me "water isn't going to help you" WTF?? The triage nurse also decided to tell me I was silly for going outside I felt like slapping her. Looking back on it I think they must have thought I had overdosed on drugs and was just another druggie. Thank God for Phan, because he managed to find a colleague working that night and she got me in sooner, and I was able to have a morphine injection to ease the pain while I waited for the doctor on duty.
Being so sick made me realise how vulnerable the human body is and that we should really take care of it. The thing that made me saddest though was the lack of human compassion that night. While I was doubled over in pain in the hospital car park on the cement, several groups of people walked past me and not one person stopped to ask if I was okay. I was by myself (because Ty was waiting inside so we wouldn't miss our spot) and screaming in pain. I could understand that some people might have been scared and didn't want to stop. But a couple of men walked past and just looked at me and kept walking, I hardly think I would have been a threat to their safety. I can honestly say that if I saw someone in that much pain I would have at least got a nurse or doctor to come out and check on that person. It made me sad that as human beings we could treat each other so heartlessly. On that note I hope this christmas I stop to think about others more and if given the opportunity to help someone out I don't keep walking. I think we could all do more. I hope this christmas in the midst of all the chaos I remember to stop and reflect on how lucky I am and think of those less fortunate.
In the spirit of Christmas hold your loved ones a little closer, and realise that a gift doesn't have to come with wrapping paper and ribbon, sometimes all we need is someone to reach out and make us feel valued.
Sunday, 26 October 2008
Meet the Fockers...
Last weekend was extremely busy. On Saturday night Matt, Aisha and Anthony came to our place for pizza and a movie. As usual we spent the night paying Anthony out. He has just bought a pink shirt that is in a tartan pattern and it is soooo ugly. Matt told him only gay guys wear pink, it was so funny, poor guy. After pizza from Australia's Pizza House (which I highly recommend their pizzas are yummo), we watched Vantage Point. The movie is about the assassination of the US President told from 8 points of view, very clever and enjoyable to watch.
On Sunday night Ty's family, including his auntie Barbara and uncle Dennis met my family. It was a big moment, because it was the first time our parents had met. It went really well. We had a bbq and Ty's dad and mine hit it off, they talked shop alot both being high school teachers and all. After dinner we played Singstar, but only John (Ty's dad), Leayshia, Jody (Ty's cousin), and I were game enough to sing. It was alot of fun John is so funny he'll try anything. My parents thought Ty's family were lovely, so the evening couldn't have gone any better.
This weekend has been a quiet one which is fine for me, because it will be the last quiet one for a while until Christmas!
On Sunday night Ty's family, including his auntie Barbara and uncle Dennis met my family. It was a big moment, because it was the first time our parents had met. It went really well. We had a bbq and Ty's dad and mine hit it off, they talked shop alot both being high school teachers and all. After dinner we played Singstar, but only John (Ty's dad), Leayshia, Jody (Ty's cousin), and I were game enough to sing. It was alot of fun John is so funny he'll try anything. My parents thought Ty's family were lovely, so the evening couldn't have gone any better.
This weekend has been a quiet one which is fine for me, because it will be the last quiet one for a while until Christmas!
Thursday, 16 October 2008
December 2005...
I was doing some spring cleaning the other day and found a diary journal that I had written in while I was going through the pain of my divorce. It is a very personal entry but I would like to share it with you:-
It is so hard to think of anything to be thankful for right now. Three weeks ago I discovered the ultimate betrayal, my husband was having an affair. Since that day my world has collapsed around me and the devastating effect it has had on me is indescribable.
I cannot look at him without my heart breaking and I find it difficult to breathe. How do I walk away from my best friend, my soul mate, my life? What do I do to bring back the broken trust, and bring back the happy times. My faith in love has been destroyed. I honestly no longer believe in it.
Love is something that when it is good it completes you, but when it is betrayed there is no pain deeper. I loved my husband with all my heart and I doubt I will ever love anyone else like that again, but my trust has been destroyed. They say that love is not enough. I will never stop loving Adam but to stay in a marraige that been tainted with betrayal is too big an ask I feel.
So on this Christmas Eve 2005 what am I thankful for? Even at this lowest point in my life I have much to give thanks for. Most of all a loving and supportive family, and loyal faithful friends. These people are my foundation, without them I don't know what I would do.
Would I still be here? I doubt that very much. I am thankful for my job a place to forget my worries. I am thankful for cinamon donuts they taste so good when things are bleak. I am thankful for my pillow, I sleep restlessly these days but at least I have somewhere to lay my head. I am even thankful for life itself and its many challenges.
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't know if I am strong, but I do know that I will not let this affair break me. I will wake up each morning, and continue on lifes journey, and oneday I will look forward to the morning. Because right now I am sad when I open my eyes only because god didn't let me die in my sleep the night before.
While typing this diary entry my heart breaks for that girl so long ago, she went through so much pain and heartache, and right now it stills brings tear to my eyes. But I look at myself now and I am so happy. Ty is an amazing person and I have found the courage to love again, and I love Ty immensely we were meant to be. I feel that I had to meet Adam first to know what I wanted in a partner. Christmas is around the corner again and I feel so different to three years ago. I am stronger, healthier, happier and at peace with myself.
It is so hard to think of anything to be thankful for right now. Three weeks ago I discovered the ultimate betrayal, my husband was having an affair. Since that day my world has collapsed around me and the devastating effect it has had on me is indescribable.
I cannot look at him without my heart breaking and I find it difficult to breathe. How do I walk away from my best friend, my soul mate, my life? What do I do to bring back the broken trust, and bring back the happy times. My faith in love has been destroyed. I honestly no longer believe in it.
Love is something that when it is good it completes you, but when it is betrayed there is no pain deeper. I loved my husband with all my heart and I doubt I will ever love anyone else like that again, but my trust has been destroyed. They say that love is not enough. I will never stop loving Adam but to stay in a marraige that been tainted with betrayal is too big an ask I feel.
So on this Christmas Eve 2005 what am I thankful for? Even at this lowest point in my life I have much to give thanks for. Most of all a loving and supportive family, and loyal faithful friends. These people are my foundation, without them I don't know what I would do.
Would I still be here? I doubt that very much. I am thankful for my job a place to forget my worries. I am thankful for cinamon donuts they taste so good when things are bleak. I am thankful for my pillow, I sleep restlessly these days but at least I have somewhere to lay my head. I am even thankful for life itself and its many challenges.
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't know if I am strong, but I do know that I will not let this affair break me. I will wake up each morning, and continue on lifes journey, and oneday I will look forward to the morning. Because right now I am sad when I open my eyes only because god didn't let me die in my sleep the night before.
While typing this diary entry my heart breaks for that girl so long ago, she went through so much pain and heartache, and right now it stills brings tear to my eyes. But I look at myself now and I am so happy. Ty is an amazing person and I have found the courage to love again, and I love Ty immensely we were meant to be. I feel that I had to meet Adam first to know what I wanted in a partner. Christmas is around the corner again and I feel so different to three years ago. I am stronger, healthier, happier and at peace with myself.
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