Last weekend was extremely busy. On Saturday night Matt, Aisha and Anthony came to our place for pizza and a movie. As usual we spent the night paying Anthony out. He has just bought a pink shirt that is in a tartan pattern and it is soooo ugly. Matt told him only gay guys wear pink, it was so funny, poor guy. After pizza from Australia's Pizza House (which I highly recommend their pizzas are yummo), we watched Vantage Point. The movie is about the assassination of the US President told from 8 points of view, very clever and enjoyable to watch.
On Sunday night Ty's family, including his auntie Barbara and uncle Dennis met my family. It was a big moment, because it was the first time our parents had met. It went really well. We had a bbq and Ty's dad and mine hit it off, they talked shop alot both being high school teachers and all. After dinner we played Singstar, but only John (Ty's dad), Leayshia, Jody (Ty's cousin), and I were game enough to sing. It was alot of fun John is so funny he'll try anything. My parents thought Ty's family were lovely, so the evening couldn't have gone any better.
This weekend has been a quiet one which is fine for me, because it will be the last quiet one for a while until Christmas!
Sunday 26 October 2008
Thursday 16 October 2008
December 2005...
I was doing some spring cleaning the other day and found a diary journal that I had written in while I was going through the pain of my divorce. It is a very personal entry but I would like to share it with you:-
It is so hard to think of anything to be thankful for right now. Three weeks ago I discovered the ultimate betrayal, my husband was having an affair. Since that day my world has collapsed around me and the devastating effect it has had on me is indescribable.
I cannot look at him without my heart breaking and I find it difficult to breathe. How do I walk away from my best friend, my soul mate, my life? What do I do to bring back the broken trust, and bring back the happy times. My faith in love has been destroyed. I honestly no longer believe in it.
Love is something that when it is good it completes you, but when it is betrayed there is no pain deeper. I loved my husband with all my heart and I doubt I will ever love anyone else like that again, but my trust has been destroyed. They say that love is not enough. I will never stop loving Adam but to stay in a marraige that been tainted with betrayal is too big an ask I feel.
So on this Christmas Eve 2005 what am I thankful for? Even at this lowest point in my life I have much to give thanks for. Most of all a loving and supportive family, and loyal faithful friends. These people are my foundation, without them I don't know what I would do.
Would I still be here? I doubt that very much. I am thankful for my job a place to forget my worries. I am thankful for cinamon donuts they taste so good when things are bleak. I am thankful for my pillow, I sleep restlessly these days but at least I have somewhere to lay my head. I am even thankful for life itself and its many challenges.
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't know if I am strong, but I do know that I will not let this affair break me. I will wake up each morning, and continue on lifes journey, and oneday I will look forward to the morning. Because right now I am sad when I open my eyes only because god didn't let me die in my sleep the night before.
While typing this diary entry my heart breaks for that girl so long ago, she went through so much pain and heartache, and right now it stills brings tear to my eyes. But I look at myself now and I am so happy. Ty is an amazing person and I have found the courage to love again, and I love Ty immensely we were meant to be. I feel that I had to meet Adam first to know what I wanted in a partner. Christmas is around the corner again and I feel so different to three years ago. I am stronger, healthier, happier and at peace with myself.
It is so hard to think of anything to be thankful for right now. Three weeks ago I discovered the ultimate betrayal, my husband was having an affair. Since that day my world has collapsed around me and the devastating effect it has had on me is indescribable.
I cannot look at him without my heart breaking and I find it difficult to breathe. How do I walk away from my best friend, my soul mate, my life? What do I do to bring back the broken trust, and bring back the happy times. My faith in love has been destroyed. I honestly no longer believe in it.
Love is something that when it is good it completes you, but when it is betrayed there is no pain deeper. I loved my husband with all my heart and I doubt I will ever love anyone else like that again, but my trust has been destroyed. They say that love is not enough. I will never stop loving Adam but to stay in a marraige that been tainted with betrayal is too big an ask I feel.
So on this Christmas Eve 2005 what am I thankful for? Even at this lowest point in my life I have much to give thanks for. Most of all a loving and supportive family, and loyal faithful friends. These people are my foundation, without them I don't know what I would do.
Would I still be here? I doubt that very much. I am thankful for my job a place to forget my worries. I am thankful for cinamon donuts they taste so good when things are bleak. I am thankful for my pillow, I sleep restlessly these days but at least I have somewhere to lay my head. I am even thankful for life itself and its many challenges.
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't know if I am strong, but I do know that I will not let this affair break me. I will wake up each morning, and continue on lifes journey, and oneday I will look forward to the morning. Because right now I am sad when I open my eyes only because god didn't let me die in my sleep the night before.
While typing this diary entry my heart breaks for that girl so long ago, she went through so much pain and heartache, and right now it stills brings tear to my eyes. But I look at myself now and I am so happy. Ty is an amazing person and I have found the courage to love again, and I love Ty immensely we were meant to be. I feel that I had to meet Adam first to know what I wanted in a partner. Christmas is around the corner again and I feel so different to three years ago. I am stronger, healthier, happier and at peace with myself.
Monday 13 October 2008
The silly season is already here...
Well it's been extremely busy in little old quiet Adelaide, but in a good way. Last weekend Ty and I went to see Guy Sebastian play with the Legacy Foundation and the money goes to charity. He played some Ido favourites such as "Angels brought me here", and he did a Memphis Melody which was awesome. I especially like "Sitting on the dock of the Bay". They also had these three girls who had the most amazing voices, and the army band were fantastic, a most enjoyable concert.
On Sunday I went to Ikea with mum, I had given her an idea for a room divider. I bought a little two draw cupboard for the spare bedroom to use to store some of my make up and jewellery. However it was damaged, so I went back today to do an exchange and that one is damaged too! I am so annoyed because Ikea is not exactly close to home. I'm going to have to ring them to get some kind of compensation because I am very pissed off, especially since I asked the guy to check that it wasn't damaged and he said "no the box is just ripped" WTF??!!
Dad gets back from Vietnam on Wednesday and I think my mum is hanging out cos she misses him alot. He told mum he has bought heaps of stuff for Be Mai, so I said to mum what about his daughter :P. It will be good to see him because I have missed having the old man around to give a hard time. This Sunday Ty's family and mine are meeting for the first time, which should be interesting :).
On Saturday night Matt and Aisha are having a bbq we haven't seen them for nearly a month so it will be good to catch up. We might play some rock band :P , I actually like that game especially the drums it's alot harder than it looks!
I have started my Christmas shopping, I have bought Beth's, Clara's and I have some ideas for Co Thuy and Chu Minh. For me Phan will be the hardest to buy for, because everything he wants is soooo expensive, but I have got an idea which I think he might like. I am looking forward to Christmas this year because it is the first one in our new house for me and Ty so I will be putting up our white christmas tree, it will be awesome!!!
On Sunday I went to Ikea with mum, I had given her an idea for a room divider. I bought a little two draw cupboard for the spare bedroom to use to store some of my make up and jewellery. However it was damaged, so I went back today to do an exchange and that one is damaged too! I am so annoyed because Ikea is not exactly close to home. I'm going to have to ring them to get some kind of compensation because I am very pissed off, especially since I asked the guy to check that it wasn't damaged and he said "no the box is just ripped" WTF??!!
Dad gets back from Vietnam on Wednesday and I think my mum is hanging out cos she misses him alot. He told mum he has bought heaps of stuff for Be Mai, so I said to mum what about his daughter :P. It will be good to see him because I have missed having the old man around to give a hard time. This Sunday Ty's family and mine are meeting for the first time, which should be interesting :).
On Saturday night Matt and Aisha are having a bbq we haven't seen them for nearly a month so it will be good to catch up. We might play some rock band :P , I actually like that game especially the drums it's alot harder than it looks!
I have started my Christmas shopping, I have bought Beth's, Clara's and I have some ideas for Co Thuy and Chu Minh. For me Phan will be the hardest to buy for, because everything he wants is soooo expensive, but I have got an idea which I think he might like. I am looking forward to Christmas this year because it is the first one in our new house for me and Ty so I will be putting up our white christmas tree, it will be awesome!!!
Wednesday 8 October 2008
It's a sad moment....
Well I found out yesterday that JT has proposed to Jessica Beal damn! I feel like such a teenager being a fan of his but I love him. Ty won tickets to his concert when he was here in Adelaide and it was one of the best concerts I've ever been to. I know I will never get to meet him or marry him but it's nice to dream. Ty if you are reading this I love you baby hee hee.
On a more realistic note I have had a "wry" neck (that's the medical term) for the last 3 days, and having never given birth this is the most excruciating pain I've ever been in. This morning I woke up at 4am in tears because I couldn't roll over or move. Nights are the worse I can't sleep and getting out of bed is nearly impossible I feel like an invalid. I can still work but I've been walking around as Ty would say like Herman Munster. I've been told that it will eventually go away so there is a light at the end of the tunnel, although it seems to be getting worse each day. I can't believe how much a sore neck can affect everything you try to do. It is even hard to put a top on, and blowing drying takes twice as long because I can't hold my head on an angle!
Besides feeling like a freak, life is going along nicely. I've got a charity ball to go to in November for work which I'm really looking forward to. I managed to find a dress in Country Road which was simple but elegant and I'll be able to wear it to my cousins wedding as well. I've also managed to get on the treadmill twice this week and have been eating tuna salads plus a hearty breakfast everyday. Fingers crossed I can keep it up and have a hot body for summer, one can dream :P !
On a more realistic note I have had a "wry" neck (that's the medical term) for the last 3 days, and having never given birth this is the most excruciating pain I've ever been in. This morning I woke up at 4am in tears because I couldn't roll over or move. Nights are the worse I can't sleep and getting out of bed is nearly impossible I feel like an invalid. I can still work but I've been walking around as Ty would say like Herman Munster. I've been told that it will eventually go away so there is a light at the end of the tunnel, although it seems to be getting worse each day. I can't believe how much a sore neck can affect everything you try to do. It is even hard to put a top on, and blowing drying takes twice as long because I can't hold my head on an angle!
Besides feeling like a freak, life is going along nicely. I've got a charity ball to go to in November for work which I'm really looking forward to. I managed to find a dress in Country Road which was simple but elegant and I'll be able to wear it to my cousins wedding as well. I've also managed to get on the treadmill twice this week and have been eating tuna salads plus a hearty breakfast everyday. Fingers crossed I can keep it up and have a hot body for summer, one can dream :P !
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